May 21, 2015

Africa!

I haven't had much internet over the past few days, mostly for lack of trying. It seems contradictory to travel allllll the way out here to sit by the Indian ocean and surf the net. So what follows are pieced together ramblings of my first few days in Africa. Sorry, no pictures. You're gonna have to read my incessant blabbering.


Day 1: Arrival in Dar Es Salaam.

I arrived in Dar a hot sweaty mess with a backpack that was clearly overpacked (why do I always do this!?!). My first moment in Tanzania began like all international stories do. I forgot to do something in the states so getting into the country required some hoops, bargaining, and someone taking my passport and sticking a dirty needle in me. Just kidding, sort of ;) Apparently I had to get my yellow fever vaccination in the states before entering Tanzania... every guide book and travel website out there says so. I missed the memo. So, upon arrival a lady in a white coat took my passport and lead me out of the visa line and into a small dark room. She took out a candy tin full of (sterile) needles and  some vials, she drew some fluid up and handed me the needle. Through conversation she discovered I was a nurse. I stalled, waiting for an alcohol swab or something... well that never came so she figured she'd move the process along. Poke, done. Welcome to tanzania.

Unfortunately besides my airport doctor's office visit there is little to say about Dar, I slept through most of my stay here. Jet lag and pure exhaustion got the better of me. Except for my taxi ride from the airport. It was then that it hit me like a ton of bricks... I am in Africa. This is a whole new world.

I must say, there is a certain amount of vulnerability in traveling solo. You don't have that buddy to talk to when you're in a taxi or eating a meal. You don't have that second person to confer with when you are navigating the crooked unnamed streets of an exotic place... or that someone who can do the math while you exchange currency so you don't have to multitask conversions while you are counting twenties. BUT, in lieu of all those instances where having a travel buddy could come in hand I feel that I have gained so much more. I have had the most interesting conversations with locals and I have been able to make friends with them. I avoid being in my own little world while on the other side of the world.

Day 2: Zanzibar.

Throughout the night I woke periodically to the hustle and bustle of Dar Es Salaam. Around 3AM there finally came a certain kind of calm that took over the city. It woke slowly here and there with calls to prayer some honking and a few people shouting across the alleyway.  I certainly felt as though I was staying at a local hotel as there were no tourists in sight, or at all for that matter. They must have all been at the Hilton. Breakfast was in a purposely kept dark room with seemingly somber men and women waking up to the day. I strapped my super conspicuous backpack to myself and headed out into the city to find the ferry building. Thankfully I had an idea as to where it was so it was fairly easy to find. The hardest part was trying to cross the street.

The ferry between Dar and Zanzibar was indeed an interesting and exciting experience. There was a healthy mix of local black Tanzanians, women in burkas, Muslim families, and adorable children smiling and crawling over their parents. I befriended two gentlemen on the ferry, one a Muslim who taught me how to say "salaam aleikum" and gave me a bottle of mango juice and the other a Tanzanian with big dreams and a churning mind. I learned about the corrupt Tanzanian government and how Tanzania has so many resoures to offer the world. He asked me questions ranging from why is America so powerful to why HIV is so widespread in Africa to how he can raise money so he can fund his farm and open a school for children who have lost their parents to HIV. What an interesting man... And what an amazing dream! I had fleeting thoughts of collaborating with him to return one day with a team to provide care for the children of his orphanage... A medical mission so to speak. Well, he could have been a creep just trying to get money but I had none to give and I want to trust in human kind. I gave him my email address and told him to write me a proposal and we could go from there... Making friends in high places, his farm is at the foot of Mt. Kilimanjaro.

I arrive in Stone Town, Zanzibar and haggle my way to Kendwa...  a village on the northern tip of the island. One of the most memorable sights of the ride between Stone Town and Kendwa was seeing three small children dancing around on their porch with their mother/older sister (?) along right beside them. Their smiles and laughter were irrisistable.

After four plane rides, a handful of taxis, a ferry, some haggling, and wandering around I was at last sitting my ass on a tropical beach eating octopus and drinking coconut water. Between chatting with locals and reading my book in the sun I take a dip in the turquoise waters of the Indian Ocean. All the stress of travel and jet lag ended in a magnificent calm.

Day 3: Now that is what a sunburn feels like... Yowza!

Turns out one afternoon of sitting by the beach was enough relaxing to warrant me seeking out some sort of activity for my second day at Kendwa. I ventured out for a day of fighting seasickness, hanging out with some tourists and locals, and snorkeling off the coast of Mnemba Island.

The day previous, I met Moses, a born and raised Kendwa local with a healthy amount of rico suave charm. We chatted on the beach and he sold me on a snorkeling tour. Well, all he had to say was "fresh caught lunch included" and I was already on the boat.

It occurred to me that there would be other tourists on the boat and admittedly so it was something I looked forward to. Meeting people from other countries is an added perk to traveling. Though, so far my most satisfying interactions with people have been with locals. They are genuinely curious and genuinely appreciative of my efforts to speak Swahili with them. However, the solidarity of being a tourist in such an exotic place seemed appealing. I was both right and very wrong.

Traveling alone has offered me the opportunity to do a lot of observing. The general theme of the breach resorts in Zanzibar are "honeymoon paradise for couples that would rather look at their phones" and "entitled white people that can't be bothered to smile." I won't get off my high horse quite yet because... Well that shit bugs me. And unfortunately it is just testament to how inherent racism can be. I'm not saying these people are bad. There is just an element of sensitivity and graciousness that is just lost. At dinner an American girl explained that she wanted her fish seared for exactly 60 seconds on each side to a waiter who clearly spoke very little English. Rather than dropping it she persisted. Finally after a gaggle of staff members came together at their table they figure something out... But c'mon, bitch shoulda sucked it up. Later, I hear her talk about how she pretended to not speak English and how hilarious it was to trick a local. She was a little too proud of herself. And then on the other side of me a table full of South Africans were snapping their damn fingers shouting "garçon" completely oblivious of their assholery. A group of Israeli girls would not smile or even humor a sweet crew member on the snorkel tour, one of them was straight up rude... Thankfully I don't think the gentleman realized. So, needless to say i did not get to know these folks. I'll get off my high horse now.

I have met a small handful of those who don't fall into the categories of unhappy, unsmiling, depressing tourists and for that I am grateful. I met some study abroad kids from Atlanta, GA and a sweet gentleman from Scotland. All were gracious and seemed genuinely excited to be here... Enjoying the island, culture and people. It was a breath of fresh air and made me less irritated with tourists. Ok, now I'm officially off my high horse.

My big snorkeling tour was quite fun but I must say the highlight of my day was at sunset. I laid along the beach and watched a soccer game unfold between the locals. There was so much laughter and energy juxtaposed against the slowness of a fiery sunset, the silhouette of bobbing fishing boats and Massai men sauntering, robes flapping in the wind.



May 14, 2015

in two short days

yes, it has been three long years since i have touched this blog... since i have taken the time to sit and write for anyone to see. i flipped through old posts and revisited 22 year old robyn and 25 year old robyn. now, it feels like a good time to rejuvenate the writer in me and discover the 28 going on 29 year old robyn.

in two short days i will be on a 14 hour flight to AFRICA. the travel bug that once infected me has come back from its dormant slumber. this trip could not have come together at a better time, i am between jobs... nursing student to full fledged nurse. i have worked my butt off over the past year to maintain sanity and secure my nursing degree. now, it is time to enjoy the perfect mixture of relaxation, education, and adventure.

i am traveling to Tanzania and Zanzibar for the next three weeks and i plan to write about my travels on this blog. hopefully i'll keep up unless i am busy getting a tan, eating mounds of seafood, and nursing people. we'll see how it goes...

tonight i sleep soundly next to my little abbie. by tuesday night i will be waking up to this... 

December 9, 2011

the inability to sleep induces this behavior

when i look up from this keyboard, i see a cozy room touched with a few old things, a few new things, and a few familiar things.

when i turn off my radio i hear the hum of my laptop warming my legs as it heats up from overuse, that just means turning on and haphazardly functioning.

when i stop to think about where i am today i feel a flurry of happiness, longing, uneasiness, and unwillingness. happiness comes easily these days. daydreaming is plentiful and finding people to laugh with comes often. longing, because until i find that someone to start the goat farm with me, there will always be a little part of my dream that is on standby. uneasiness and unwillingness come hand in hand, in my case the latter more powerful. the seemingly "big questions" of life, the ones with answers that hold the details of my future, make me uneasy and induce a sense of stubbornness in me. i worry because that's the way i was raised, and i'm stubborn because that's the way i was born. i'm worried that i'm stubborn and i'm stubborn because i don't want to worry. that makes some sense, right?

i just wanted to write tonight, and this confusing jumble of words is what came out. i really am happy and life is treating me quite well! my inspiration to write again came from reading old posts and seeing how i've changed so much and not changed at all.

March 30, 2011

a year in review

i like to think that coonridge (goat farm in the middle of nowhere) is my buffer. my quarantine. my halfway house. i've done my stint in canada, the east coast, and all the driving i could ever hope for through the midwest plains. but now, one year after leaving the eastside I find myself hankering for a home. i'm back at coonridge learning how to live in a home and do homey things, like bake bread, so that i can ease my way into settling down (oh, for a year or so... who knows?) in fort collins, co. my mind is buzzing with where i can buy the best rennet and cheese culture, free horse manure from greeley, whole wheat flour for good-for-you bread... relaxing on a PORCH! oh how exciting!

because i never really updated my blog, as i had initially planned, here is my year abbreviated:

i left bishop on march 4th. if any of you know me you'll realize that the "4th" was not my ideal date, however for some reasons i can't even remember i was driving through westgard on the 4th headed to red rocks and beyond. last spring was spent mostly in the high, red colored desert. nevada & utah, specifically. to recover from a battered and exhausted body i spent a month farmin', goatin', growin', cheesin' my way though the confused season of june... (is it spring? is it summer? is it sprummer?) come summer i headed north to squishy, i mean squamish... and landed in coloradie via yellowstone and the tetons. WOW, what a trip... thanks to my sidekick/beaver. (and now i pick up from where i left off on my last blog entry.) finally the season for east coast sandstone arrived and i headed to... (drum roll please) DELAWARE. wtf? ok, so i decided that since goats were so cool i'd try my hand at a sheep farm. well, sheep are cool. but still doesn't beat the character of a stubborn ol' goat. the two lessons i took away from spending a couple of weeks in DE: 1.not all small organic farms are successful and that is a harsh reality, and 2. L$... you are the most adorable, wonderful, free spirited friend! with the sheep curiosity satisfied i needed to head back west. except this time i was singing "country road" by john denver. west virginia = new river gorge = one of my top three favorite places to climb in america. sport chuffing and trad climbing a like, it's all spectacular in the nrg. apparently the bouldering is good too, but i didn't get a chance to try it out. (favorite climb? hands down: the legacy). it was hard to leave, but yes... i had to sacrifice some time to give the red a chance. well, it took a couple of weeks to get used to the red and in the end i can definitely see it's appeal. not bad. but really... besides a handful of stunning lines, at the end of the day i was psyched on miguels pizza. ok, maybe because i don't climb 5.13 i couldn't really appreciate the red. maybe next year. hah. after a month or so of rope climbing i was hankering for some farm action... and oh! how convenient! the hog farm i decided to work on was a mere 45 minutes from the LRC and rocktown. hogs are rude, but tasty, so i appreciate them in their stinky and squealy glory. if you scratch a pig behind their ears they love it... and it makes their meat taste really good ;) i got to spend thanksgiving with a small farming family in georgia... dressing = stuffing, NOT the stuff you put on your salad, btw. tenenssee/georgia was lovely and rocktown is really fun, especially if you like slopey, desperate, mantle top outs. i regrettably never made it to the T-wall... major BUMMER!! but now i have a reason to head back. it started getting cold in the south east and my wimpy californian ass made a bee-line to HUECO! sunny tank top climbing weather lends itself to more smiles and more sending. Hueco was a big deal for me climbing wise, i did my first two V7's and quickly did some 6's and 5's. And now, here I am... one year later... on March 3rd 2011 i headed back to my beloved goats. between all that driving, to and fro, i've been back to the bay and my beloved eastside a handful of times... and regardless of where i decide to lay my ever changing roots i see myself living on the eastside. someday. ok, so that wasn't so abbreviated. woops.

i've been here at coonridge for a few weeks now and will be for another. i haven't climbed much and i'm getting a little more round, but i can bake some tasty bread! life had been revolving around birthing baby goats. i've seen over 40 goats give birth and even helped out on a few. i've smiled, cried, panicked, and just sat back to watch the show. the beauty of birth and the ugly side of dairies exposed itself to me. what happened to all the baby bucks that were born? well, they don't grow up to make milk do they? so they ended up as pig food and choice organ parts were spread out on the table floured and fried up for an afternoon snack. again, if you know me... of course i ate the brains! not bad.

bread is done, time to eat! i leave you with a beautiful photo of banana split, the kid i pulled out and introduced to our world!

September 30, 2010

fear

i meant to type the word "fear" but i typo-ed it out to be "far." and then i meant to write the word "word" but i typed work. four days of driving alone and completely sustained on coffee and old packs of ramen will make a mess of you. a shaky, malnourished, cross eyed mess. or maybe i meant to muse on how "far" i've come, literally and figuratively. and maybe i am yearning for work... who knows? i do. but i just don't know it yet.

to the point of this strange entry (maybe)... on my drive out east i got to see the midwest. i got to smell the cornfields and talk to some genuinely nice however, concerned, folk. i got a lot of the same two questions: "what is a girl from california doing out here?!" and "aren't you afraid?" two very valid questions with two very uncertain answers. firstly, i am in terre haute, IN or pataskala, OH because it is on the way to the Delware. at least that's what i tell them and for the most part it is true. so i guess that particular answer is not uncertain. and secondly, to answer the question regarding fear, yes and no. no at first... but once the question is asked and i let my mind wander i get a little scared. but really, what scared me the most was that this question was on everyones tongue. and most of the time it was one of the first things out of their mouth. i'm poking along the highway, drinking my mickey d's coffee, and camping out... am i doing something that should grant fear? apparently so. it makes me uncomfortable and a little fearful when everyone (and when i say "everyone" i mean the 3 or so people i encounter at a gas station or the campground) is suggesting that it is something that is so common and so obvious.

i guess i took it to heart and to an all too personal of a level. i kept thinking about fear... and i may have over did it. on my drive i went from fearing the dinosaur like giraffes in my dreams that were attacking my car to fearing huge semis zooming by me and spraying my windshield with a blinding sheet of water to fearing the idea of having no plan whatsoever post "mission: east cost." yep... first two probably worth fearing. that last one?.... uhh..

i've thought about it, it being fear. (could you tell?) and i could fear a lot of things... but why waste the energy and thought into it? well, because it is a survival trait. duh! and really, drawing the line between necessary and un-necessary fear is not at all thin. it will be a long time before i can trust river water above my knees and i will drive 10 below the speed limit if i can't see anything. those are black and whites for me. but fearing the future? fearing being alone? or fearing making the wrong decisions? those i think i should be able to do without. but how do you erase that uncertainty? wow, now i'm delving into another heavy word: uncertainty. well, in my world it goes hand in hand with fear. all i know is that there is plenty of negativity associated with fear and uncertainty, but what i fail to keep in mind is that i fear ideas like the future because they are completely open to me! and that is quite the positive thought. my future is not set in stone, i'm not going to be married off like my grand mother or sent to work in the cornfields of middle america. i'm alive, i'm pretty darn happy and i have to ability to change things. if i am scared or uncertain i can change my path or change myself.

i'm glad that i was asked if i was scared by strangers. it makes sense... i'm a young woman traveling by myself in a puny civic. i'm not trying to belittle my sex or anything... it's just a strange sight in pataskala, OH. it reminds me that i can't trust everyone and unfortunatly there are people and things out there to fear, naturally... however it reminds me that i have a very special opportunity. and i am so very lucky to be able to just pick a place on a map and drive to it to see it, be in it, and breathe it. in bishop or boulder or any other vagabond infested place my trip might seem kind of lame... but in pataskala, OH i feel so very far from lame.